Monday, April 30, 2012

Three.


I love this picture.

April 30, 2009.

Not because of the circumstances. We had just been seen in the ER and were waiting for a room at a children's hospital after just learning our child did indeed have Type 1 diabetes. 

What I love is her smile. Her innocence, and her trust in us as she so patiently waited and listened and put up with so much. The way the life came back to her eyes after that first shot of insulin, how she could eat and enjoy it and finally just FEEL better after weeks of what we didn't know was diabetes slowly taking her from us.

I remember all those moments, the symptoms that finally made sense, the realizations and shock, the scary feeling of bringing her home after a crash course in all-things-diabetes. The reality that a new life was starting, one far different from what we had known up to that point.

When this day rolls around each year I think of Leah in all those little moments and how she handled things. Her bravery, her composure, and that smile. Three years of living with diabetes is tough, and she's got a lot more ahead of her. We'll help each other, and she'll keep teaching us just as much as we teach her.

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Beeps and Peeps

Pure, uninterrupted sleep.

It doesn't happen around here very often. So when I woke up this morning to realize that not a single CGM alarm had gone off last night, I realized how great it felt to get a full night's sleep.

Having a CGM is wonderful and it's become a great part of our routine for Leah's care. But the incessant beeping can drive you completely nuts. We try to keep the alarms set at reasonable levels to avoid constant beeps, but the blood sugar of a 7 year old type 1 diabetic is erratic at best, and over the last few weeks we've been making changes left and right to try to keep up with growth spurts, hormones, or who knows what else is going on in that body that wreaks havoc on BG numbers. So it makes for a very "beepy" life--and I end up hearing them everywhere I go, even when Leah's not with me.

And there's of course the holidays....I'm all for treats and being a kid, but when school calls to tell you they're having 19 jellybeans when you're in the midst of trying to figure out whether current basal rates and insulin to carb ratios are working, it kind of throws off the day. The Easter bunny will bring some candy, and we'll get through, but I definitely will be happy when this current sugar-laden holiday is over and we can be done with the jellybeans, peeps, and marshmallow eggs for awhile.

Fingers crossed our changes stay for at least a few days and we get a few more beep-less nights.

Happy Spring!